Thursday, June 26, 2008

Still at Rock Bottom

Another "unremarkable" day today. All three blood count levels are at or close to rock bottom as expected, and Chris is in the middle of one her highest risk periods right now. Just as yesterday, she has no immunity system at all and as such, we are being very careful. For about a week now, Chris has been in one of three places: the hospital, the apartment, or my car. She is unfortunately getting to "dislike" this routine (I am sure more explicit words will be used soon) as she is ready to go home. However, that is not going to happen.

the side effects remain surprisingly non-existent. Even the Doctors are surprised and keep warning us that they are coming. I had to ask today - "Did she really get the Chemo?". I was assured that they gave it to her, the high dose in fact. So we still wait. In the meantime she still has a full head of hair!

Over the last few days, I have come to two conclusions about the Medical world:
1) medicine is an art, not a science. Of course there is chemistry, biology, anatomy, etc. but I am struck by the amount of difference in opinion on courses of action, medications, and dosages from doctors in the same practice. There is an amazing amount of opinion, gut feeling, and unique perspectives. I have seen one doctor give a prescription and instructions on frequency only to see another doctor on the same medical team shake their head and say "no, don't do that, do this". That kind of shakes ones confidence that their is a single right answer that gets to the end objective. When two colleagues say two different, contradictory things, that is pretty scary.
2) the other observation I have had is that like any community, there is an amazing amount of politics. In my never ending research about this disease, I have found papers from researchers all over the world. I have seen lectures on the internet from researchers in the UK who claim that they "have the single best center for this in the world". They also have the best diagnosis capability, the lowest morbidity rates, etc. They explain in their lectures their findings and approaches. Yet when I bring these topics up to other doctors or ask questions about theses approaches, I see posturing, competitiveness, and even dismissal. So what is the point I am trying to make here: very simple - question everything you are told (why, how, who, etc), find out as much as you can about an illness , and for anything serious , always get a second of third opinion. Medicine to me as an art not a science.

OK, sorry for the off topic rambling, I just needed to vent. Most important is that Chris is in fact getting what I believe is the best possible treatment in the entire world for this disease, she is doing very well considering the incredible stress her body is undergoing, and the single thing we are most grateful for is the love being sent from family and friends. Tomorrow will be a critical day as we hope to avoid any infections with no immune system. That is the single biggest risk she faces.